today's diary .

well,

today at around 8 , I woke up because my parents said we're going to Keningau . which i wrote on my blog that i really wanted to go . its 3 hours to get there , so my mom bought JUNK FOODS and SWEETS so we dont feel starving while we're on the way . one of my elder cousins was there , he is damn handsome . not that cute though ( omg he just called me seconds ago after i wrote this :O OMG ) btw, back to the main topic . well, when we reached there, there's no one at the house ! actually ,we went there because there was a wedding on . so my dad was asked to bless the foods they've prepared so after that we went all eating and looked so full after that . my favourate cousin i talked about earlier text me and asked me to sit next to him ! and there am i , feeling like it was heaven . we didn't talked too much though . and then it was going home time , we've been there for like 3 hours i think .. so yeah , while otw back , ( it was a convoy btw, i forgot to tell ) he text me and asked me about my biodata . so yeah ,i answered his questions . and then he said " there's something i wanna asked you ? but please answer the truth okay ? " then i said okay . so he asked this " are you single ? just curious " then i said yeah . then he asked " REALLY ? " then i was like duhh .. but i didn't reply his text though . because i ran out of credit . again ! well actually i am not . i am taken . not long after that i boyfriend text me and said " you dont love me anymore right baby ? " then i kinduh .. get mad .. and kinduh fought . so he said " okay , i'll call you in a few minutes . " well, yeah , i waited . when he called he asked " have you eaten yet baby ? " i said yeah . he said " good then " * silence for afew second * then he said , which really suprised me " lets break up " then i end up the phone . then , he texted me and said im sorry baby , i just felt something was up between us . i wanna be single . im sorry to tell you about my feelings . and im sorry if this really hurts you . baby, you know i love you , yes of course i do , but .. i dont know . i just , wanna break up and be single . dont worry , i love you . we'll be okay in our own way . bye , love you baby ! i broke down to tears as im reading . but im okay .. kinduh . theres lots more fish in the sea . hmp .. im friggin sad and mad right now !

bie, if you're readin this .. theres something i want to say . please read .

bie, i know maybe i've hurted you for many times . i didn't replied your text for several times for 3 days i think . you know im busy right ? i know you're bored waiting for my reply,but .. i've tried . and now you did make me heart broken for the first time, but . i guess , thats what i should do . im letting you go . as long as you're happy (: you know i love you more than you do . its a good thing you asked for these break ups nicely . i wont hate you for that . i still love you . maybe we'll be better on our own way right ? hmp .. okay . i love you too bie ! i always have ! muahh !!

thank you . miss you btw ..,

love and care .
XOXO from Nicolle Xendria ): ..