oh that bay boy

hellohello

well, hello there . i know i had'nt been posting anything here for 21 days already , i was busy studying and doing my assignments . and somehow, my internet got hung up . luckily my dad paid the bil already . so , i'm gonna share my thoughts and my interest on this one hot bad boy in my school . actually there's 2 :) their just sooooooo FIRING HOT baby :p i'm gonna start right about now .

well, there's this 2 boys in my school . i dont wana tell their names , just so my friends can read this and might tell them , u bet their reading same as you now :p haha . so anyway , one is upper form one is lower form . the lower form is 1 year younger than the other one . but too bad , he kinda had a girl already :( kindaa . or is it just my bad thoughts of hot boys :p haha . i dont care . im'ma try my best though ;p okay , a little for the lower form . now the upper form guy , he is damn hotter than the lower form guy . i love his eyes that is soo big and his lips that is just so perfect :p ahaha ! now don't take that serious . i was joking , i may not be kissing him until he is mine someday , i hope so ? :) haha . i talked once to him , and he kinda like to talk to me . we have that same thoughts though . he is an athlete . the one I use to be .. the same game i mean . i just felt so damn mad to my parents for making me stop playing that game >.<>

so, thats something of everything that i wana tell :p haha ! i need to go throw up :p haha ! kidding , but seriously, i need to go . okeh, bye ,. byebye now . byee . byebye little and big ones . bye bye . byee . okeh, bye !

i love those damn hot bad boy :p

love and care,

XOXO from Nicolle Blarea :)

it starts all over again ..

hellohello ...

well, through my startings you knew how i feel today aite ? hmp ... starts when i woke up today at around 7.45 am i guess , and then my parents straight away asked me to sit down and eat for breakfast . i dont have the mood to eat .. so i ate sloooooooowly . and finished at around 8.20 . yeah , 25 minutes ? uhuh .. you people know the reason i have no mood the whole day right ? yeah you do, if you have read my post yesterday of course you'd know why .. i miss his text early in the morning saying " bby ?" he thinks of me before i do . he wakes up earlier than i do . everytime i ran out of credit , he called me with different numbers everytime . everytime i dont reply his massages and didn't told him i was busy , he'd sent me " bby ?! " he gets mad . and everytime he asked for kisses, it makes me melt . because isn't that sweet ? a cute guy asking for a kiss from you ? )': i just miss everything .. except his horniness . i hate that .. hmp .. i've deleted all his sweet massages and the teasing massages between me and him . he always say " bby your stupid, hhe " and i'll always reply " bie you have no brain ! " we always tease each other . i miss those the most ! )': damn im crying ! uhh .. well , i think thats for first post for today . need to go and wash my damn crying face .. )'X

bie, if you're seeing this .. ( again )

bie, i just want you to know that i'll always love you .. ebenthough we havent even met yet . but i just have the feelings that we are supposed to be . you just dont get it .. i think you felt bored right ? waiting for my reply everytime .. i know i've always replied your text but in a very long time to sent to you . u know i'm busy .. uhh , i miss those moments when you called me , tease me , asked for kisses and when you said " bby, i lovp u " i miss those ! )': but you said you wana be single , so i'm letting you go . be happy okay ? it melts me and reduced my anger when you said " bby, sowey , i lovp u " thats the last massage i received from you .. :') thank you ! i lovp you too sayang .. i always have :') .... :'(

love and care
XOXO from Nicolle Xendria :')

today's diary .

well,

today at around 8 , I woke up because my parents said we're going to Keningau . which i wrote on my blog that i really wanted to go . its 3 hours to get there , so my mom bought JUNK FOODS and SWEETS so we dont feel starving while we're on the way . one of my elder cousins was there , he is damn handsome . not that cute though ( omg he just called me seconds ago after i wrote this :O OMG ) btw, back to the main topic . well, when we reached there, there's no one at the house ! actually ,we went there because there was a wedding on . so my dad was asked to bless the foods they've prepared so after that we went all eating and looked so full after that . my favourate cousin i talked about earlier text me and asked me to sit next to him ! and there am i , feeling like it was heaven . we didn't talked too much though . and then it was going home time , we've been there for like 3 hours i think .. so yeah , while otw back , ( it was a convoy btw, i forgot to tell ) he text me and asked me about my biodata . so yeah ,i answered his questions . and then he said " there's something i wanna asked you ? but please answer the truth okay ? " then i said okay . so he asked this " are you single ? just curious " then i said yeah . then he asked " REALLY ? " then i was like duhh .. but i didn't reply his text though . because i ran out of credit . again ! well actually i am not . i am taken . not long after that i boyfriend text me and said " you dont love me anymore right baby ? " then i kinduh .. get mad .. and kinduh fought . so he said " okay , i'll call you in a few minutes . " well, yeah , i waited . when he called he asked " have you eaten yet baby ? " i said yeah . he said " good then " * silence for afew second * then he said , which really suprised me " lets break up " then i end up the phone . then , he texted me and said im sorry baby , i just felt something was up between us . i wanna be single . im sorry to tell you about my feelings . and im sorry if this really hurts you . baby, you know i love you , yes of course i do , but .. i dont know . i just , wanna break up and be single . dont worry , i love you . we'll be okay in our own way . bye , love you baby ! i broke down to tears as im reading . but im okay .. kinduh . theres lots more fish in the sea . hmp .. im friggin sad and mad right now !

bie, if you're readin this .. theres something i want to say . please read .

bie, i know maybe i've hurted you for many times . i didn't replied your text for several times for 3 days i think . you know im busy right ? i know you're bored waiting for my reply,but .. i've tried . and now you did make me heart broken for the first time, but . i guess , thats what i should do . im letting you go . as long as you're happy (: you know i love you more than you do . its a good thing you asked for these break ups nicely . i wont hate you for that . i still love you . maybe we'll be better on our own way right ? hmp .. okay . i love you too bie ! i always have ! muahh !!

thank you . miss you btw ..,

love and care .
XOXO from Nicolle Xendria ): ..

hey peoples :)

hellohello peoples :)

well,today i ran out of credit!uhh i hate it when that happens!i tried to go reload my phone just now but it rained :/ damn i am mad.not really :D um,well my boyfriend did called me.and we talked for about 5 minutes i guess.too short for me!uhh.but im happy though he called.atleast i knew he did think of me :) haha.so , its still raining and its almost dark time.shit,i need to reload my phone!

by the way, i really hope i can go to Keningau tomorrow with my cousins and hopily my favourate cousin is there too.man i love them!haha.of course,everybody love their cousins right?haha.so anyway, i really gotta get going right now.byebye folks :)

LOVE AND CARE.

XOXO from Nicolle Debora :)